I wish I could quit you....

Dammit Arthas, why did you have to come back into my life? I was doing fine without you, meeting other characters and actually venturing outdoors a couple days a week. I hardly even thought about you until I saw you standing in the store looking all bad ass and scary, you made me weak. I tried to resist you, really I did and was doing a pretty damn good job until it happened.

WotLK release day.

Walking past the table loaded up with books, regular and collectors editions (CE) to go to break, it began innocently enough. I picked up one of the few remaining CE and purused the back out of curiousity and was able to put it back down and walk away. That little skeleton dragon haunted me all through break and the morning of work. The pile of CE got smaller and smaller, my will got weaker and weaker. Finally I decided that I would go to lunch and if there was still a CE when I got back I would buy it. Lunch was uneventful, I think it was Burger King. As I walked back into the store a ray of light came down from above to illuminate the single CE remaining. Oh yes, little skeleton dragon you were meant to be mine. In all of my euphoria I managed to purchase the game with my corporate card. Oops. See what this game is already doing to me?? Sigh. It's a good thing I don't have much of a life anyways. lol

Started up on a new server, Dalaran, in order to play with my sisters boyfriend since everyone I knew that played has moved on. As of last night I'm 3 and half levels from getting my hufflelump mount. Yeah, I know they're not called that but everytime I see them all I can think about is Winnie the Pooh. After a matter of hours I was right back in my old habits. Originally I started a human warlock because I've never leveled one past 10. (I have a horrible case of altitis.) I say originally because I quickly moved on to a different character, my lovely draenai hunter. What can I say, I love them. Hunters not draenai, I'd much rather be a blood elf but all my friends play Alliance. Wusses.

close to you...............

I never thought a fire would make me so happy and sad at the same time. Back in march a store caught fire and i went to help out after making sure i wouldn't miss my nieces birthday. After all the drama we finally got there & on the first day at work I think I recognize someone that i used to chat with through emails. Turned out that he recognized me too. After chatting through out the day he hung out with the my friends & I after work. We have soo much in common, enough to prompt him to ask why he hadn;t married me yet. That led to an informal wedding in the hotel room with our song being "close to you" from mirrormask. He's at marine boot camp right now & i miss him so much. We've talked about making things official & i'm all for it once he meets my family. I really want to write him right now but I don;t want to make him feel bad. I just want to be with him and not be so sad & thinkig about him all the time. He is the only person i;ve ever met who;s made me feel better about myself.

keep your enemies close

3 months into the year and I've already managed to remove people from my life and add even fewer. After some thinking in the shower I came to realize that I should have stopped talking to a certain person a very, very, very long time ago. Let's call her LM aka Loud Mouth.
Example #1 - My mum and I were in a fairly severe car accident which resulted in my being unable to work for 3 months and then a bunch of physical therapy after that. So I inform the work the next day of the accident, they send flowers and I get a few phone calls. LM calls me a couple times and says she's going to come see me. (I happened to be in between apartments when the accident happened so I was staying at my parents at the time which was are 40 minutes away from work.) Anyways, LM says she going to come down on Wednesday after lunch. Since I haven't seen anyone outside my family and doctors I was really looking forward to it. Wednesday comes and goes, she doesn't bother to call or return my calls for several weeks. She was too "busy." Um, you update your myspace every time you breathe so don't lie.
Example #2 - I have a stomach condition that has required several emergency room trips. My second trip occurred the day before we were supposed to go pick out the bridesmaids dresses. I spent all day at the hospital and when I got home I called to find out what time it was happening and where. We were having lunch first and then going to pick out the dresses. At the hospital I had Morphine put into my IV and I was pretty out of it from it. Since I knew I was not going to be able to eat much of anything I asked it it was cool if I just came for the dresses part. LM said it wasn't a problem. So the next day I wake up still out of it and head out to the bridal store, halfway there I get lost and have to call for directions. She answers and informs me that she changed things around and they're almost done picking the dress and about to leave for the restaurant. Awesome. I love that you left me out even though I spoke to you not even 14 hours ago.
There have been many other things. Her dating my male best friend and screwing up his life. Calling me a liar if favor of a guy who is a well known ass. Telling people secrets that I told her. Blowing me off when she comes to town and still expecting to willingly shell out $300 bucks for a dress. etc.
Honestly it was really stupid of me to remain friends with this person for so long. Kinda pathetic really.

10 things i .....

Ten things you wish you could say to 10 DIFFERENT people right now (don't list names):

1. I resent the fact that you withhold information in attempts to make me look bad cause you want my job.
2. Is there really a point to this since you're moving across the country in a couple months?
3. You invade my personal space WAY too much.
4. When you stick your tongue out all the time it looks disgusting & creepy.
5. I'm amazed at how much I love being called aunt ****.
6. I should have forgiven you.
7. Why did you keep blowing me off?
8. Why are we still friends?
9. You are a filthy, disgusting pig & I can't even look at you without thinking about how unsanitary you are.
10. I think you're amazing.

Nine things about yourself:
1. I'm bad with money.
2. I love food.
3. My self confidence is about a 4 unless I'm sick then it gets lower.
4. I hoard Pop Rocks.
5. Cartoons & Comics make me very happy.
6. I feel fat & want to stop taking my pills so I'll be skinnier again.
7. Painting ceramics is very fun.
8. I would be a kick ass mom.
9. I feel very detached from everything lately.

Seven things that cross your mind a lot:
1. Iz
2. Random boys
3. Money problems
4. Health Issues
5. Quitting
6. Daydreams
7. Story Ideas

Six turn offs in the opposite sex:
1. Bad manners
2. Ignorance
3. Players
4. Lying
5. Smelliness
6. Lots of sweat

Five things you wish you never did
1. Became friends with Erik
2. Quit college
3. Got out to my car that night
4. Got too drunk
5. Gained weight

Two things you want to do before you die:
1. Have a kid
2. Find a job I love

One Confession:

I want to be content with my life but that will never happen if I never leave my house.

i'm not your boyfriend!!

iI really really hate those new tic tac commercials, they're horribly annoying. I digress, both of the previous boys mentioned on said blog have gone the way of the dodo bird. The first one by my choice, i deserve so much better than someone who acts like he's ashamed of me & doesn't know (or care to know) anything about me. The second guy, well I really have know idea what happened, to the point it went from omg you;re so awesome to "I'm sorry do I know you?" Weirdness. So after dealing with a ton of health issues, both mine & my families, i've pretty much gotten an idea of how to control my illness. It's not always fun or pretty but at least I'm starting to know what to avoid.
With the new year I have also removed some people from my life that we're not having a positve effect on it. Just because you were once friends with someone doesn't mean that you're always going to be friends with them. Sometimes you just outgrow people & you no longer have anything in common with them. Which is going to be something that I'm going to work on this year, I need to surround myself with people who I have stuff in common with & who care about me. So while I've removed some people I've added some others. He's funny, smart, adorably cute & actually seems to care about me. Not in a love way, it's way way way too soon for that but it's nice to have someone concerned about me when I'm not doing so good. The age difference doesn't bother me or him apparently & he's already had me out to meet his friends. It's pretty nice.